Its going to be ok.

Yes I know im a day late but I said that I might not be able to make the goal all the time. :P This week was a bit weird. Alot of up and down emotions. I think this is the first week that I truly realized that im not at home. My home. Then I realized that I am at home. Today was the first day I was happy to come home to Matt And Alyssa's. Last night we had our floor meeting :P ( this is the second time we sat on the floor and chilled) Then after that we sat and read the bible and had a good evening. Thats when I knew everything was going to be ok. If I move back to my moms house, Stay here for a little bit, or even move out alone or with a roomate. Its going to be ok. It was always going to be ok I just didnt see that. I also feel better about my church. I know I havent been going because of church but I still felt the stress Partly because I live with Matt and Alyssa, and Matts job was on the line. However I was also stressed because of all my friends in the youthgroup. Two weeks ago when we had a meeting all of the Youth cried and got super duper sad, so I thought that was the end for us because alot of the youth have left for different reasons. Now I see everything getting better. My Friend texted me today saying that everyone at my church was acually happy today. Which took ALOT of my stress away. :) My church is finally getting back together (Slowly but surely).
All I need now is my family to get back together. I dont know if we will or not. However as I said.. even if it doesnt I will be ok. Im Strong and I will get over this. I have so many wonderful people in my life that was helping me and I am so sososososo blessed to know every one of them. ♥  My life is starting to turn around for the better. I just have to take baby steps.


Live Long, Laugh Hard, Love Strong ♥

So I was faced with a problem on Sunday. You see I work every Sunday from 7 in the morning to normally 3-4 pm. That is a pretty long day. I hate working Sundays because I always wished I was at Church, I thought I was a bad christian for not going to church. Then I thought to myself.."Its not like im skipping church to go do drugs or something im doing it because of work". Then Alyssa suggested that I go to an evening church service. However I thought that if I work a 10 hours day id be to tired to go to church at night. Then I noticed that I was being very subborn because Sundays are the best days for be money wise, but I want to go to church but I dont want to go at night. I was being very dumb. So After sitting at home praying about it. I decided that I was going to try the night service somewhere. so im going to try it. Even if I am to tired and dont want to go to an evening service anymore then that doesnt make me a bad christian. God understands why im not going to church.

I also decided that im going to start reading my bible more because I have been slacking on that alot to. For the same reasons. Im to tired. Which is really really dumb and I know its dumb but it doesnt help with anything. I think my problem is im far away from God. Im not praying daily, Im not reading my bible daily, im not going to church. I just want to build a stronger, healthy relationship with God. As you know I did a bible study on friday for youth group. I asked the question " How can you build your faith" I got alot of good answers but the one that stuck out to me was "Focus more on God." Thats what I have to do Focus More On God.. But How.. Lately I have been reading my bible.. and by lately I mean.. Yesterday.. but you have to start somewhere. Im also going to pray more which is very hard for me because Im always findng myself  praying about me and me alone, Now thats not a bad thing but I always feel bad when I dont get to pray about others.

If anyone is reading this.. I hope there is someone. Can you pray for me? and about how im trying to focus on God. and if there is anybody that wants me to pray for them. Leave a comment below and I will pray :)

Live Long, Laugh Hard, Love Strong ♥

Faith.

So I am a Christian I have been one for almost 2 years. It has been the best time of my life. Lately I have been feeling like God has been telling me to write bible studies. I always thought that was crazy because I dont know much about the bible. However I love talking in front of people..Mostly. On Friday I did a bible study for my youthgroup, I thought it sucked but everyone else told me it was AWESOME. So i was pretty pleased with myself. Here is the Bible Study and hopefully you can get something out of it. :)


What I did was get 2 kinds of Baby food, Carrot and Banana.
I took off the carrot label because everyone would know what it is because of the colour.
For the banana I covered the label and had everyone guess which made it harder.

You don’t need faith to know that it is carrot.
But The Banana was a bit harder.

What do you think this bible study us about?
this may be a hard question..

Faith..
what is faith?
Ask people what faith is.

the bible says.. in Hebrews 11:1
New International Version (NIV)
11 Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see.

New Life Version (NLV)
11 Now faith is being sure we will get what we hope for. It is being sure of what we cannot see.



IF you tell me that ___ IS BEHIND ME I HAVE FAITH because i believe you

IF you tell me  ___ IS IN FRONT I DON’T NEED FAITH BECAUSE I AM CERTAIN because I can see them.

Now I struggle a lot with faith because.. Yeah I believe in Jesus.. But sometimes thing cause me to make me stop believe. And since I can’t see Jesus sometimes I’m not certain of it so I freak out and think about everything. A lot of people didn’t need to see Jesus because they just had faith. For Example..

Read Hebrews.. 11
Learn About..

Cain and Abel
Enoch
Noah
Abraham And many others.


As A Christian I felt horrible about not having faith because most Christians do. However I also learned that some people didn’t have faith at times.

Matthew 14:22-33 Peter walking on water..
Even though peter could see Jesus walking on water he still needed action… our faith demands action. In the bible it says that God gave every good man a measure of faith. So we all have faith but sometimes it seems like it’s not there. Well you can fix that by taking action! So what is the action we need to take to build our faith? Well We can read the bible. Romans 10:11 says “Faith comes from hearing the message and the message comes from Christ.” 

So, I’m going to put everyone into groups and give you a story and some questions.



Abraham
Genesis: 22.

-Why do you think that God tested Abraham?
-If you were Isaac how might you have felt from the time Abraham raised the knife to the time god provided the lamb as a substitute?
-I told you that you can read the bible to build your faith, what are some other ways you can develop and maintain a strong faith?

 

Noah
Genesis: 6-7:4.

-  What are two examples of mankind’s evil that made God upset in this chapter? And how do we see the same problems today? What does this say about mankind?
-Why do you think that what God told Noah to do seemed so unbelieveable to Noah?
- I told you that you can read the bible to build your faith, what are some other ways you can develop and maintain a strong faith?

 

Daniel
Daniel Chapter: 6

-  In your life have you ever experienced God in the midst of a “Lions Den”?
-  Did Daniel change his habits after the law was passed? Why or why not? And what would you do if the same law was passed today?
-I told you that you can read the bible to build your faith, what are some other ways you can develop and maintain a strong faith?

Like Kids In A Candy Store

A couple weeks back I read a book called "The Wisdom Of The Enneagram". Basically Enneagram is a map that has 9 personality types of human nature and and their complex interelationships ( I got that from the book.. I dont know what it means..) Anywho.. the Nine types are..

1.)The Reformer
2.)The Helper
3.)The Achiever
4.)The Individualist
5.) The Investagator
6.)The Loyalist
7.) The Enthusiast
8.) The Challenger
9.)The Peacemaker

Now, dont try and look at the words and try and guess what you are. That does NOTHING. trust me I thought I was a 2, because I love helping. NOPE. I am a 7. NOT only a 7 but a 7 with a 6 wing. Ill explain that later.
So what you do is read to sets of paragraphs and pick one out of each. A.B.C OR X.Y.Z I picked AX which makes me a 7. Each number has a basic fear and a basic desire. My fear is Of being trapped. My Desire is to be happy and to find fulfillment. When I first read these I thought it was dumb and it wasnt me. I was WRONG. Each number has its own chapter. As I read the chapter more and more I realized that this book and my chapter DESCRIBED ME. 100%  It says that 7's are enthusiastic about anything that catches their attention. Also that 7s approach life with curiosity, optimism, and a sense of adventure. "Like Kids in a candy store" which is awesome because I normally tell people im like a kid opening presents on christmas day. ANYWAY. As I read on I read so many more things that related more and more to me. Then I got to the wing part of the book. I found out that that im Seven with a Six wing, which basically means im half 7 and half 6 called "The Entertainer".  It says that Entertainers are Productive and playful, Also Curious and creative. (Thats totally me).
The Entertainer also has an awesome sense of humor.. Here I GO...

What do you call a singing computer..?
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ADELE.. hahaha,

The chapter also has "wake up calls" which tells you how to be a healthy number it also has little charts with lots more information about your number. YOU should read this book. You will find out alot more about yourself then you know. This book really opened my eyes. The book also opened my eyes about my friends, I can understand them more which is awesome. You guys will have fun reading about yourself!!

Live Long, Laugh Hard, Love Strong. ♥

I Like Chores.

So
Ive come to the decision to post everyother day. I will try and make that goal if I dont, dont kill me. :P Yesterday was the first day that I really started feeling like an adult. I made dinner, which was mushroom soup and it was AMAZING. I also did my own laundry, and I have done that before but just uniforms and rarely all my clothes. The thing was I got to do it when I wanted to. Normally my family would do clothes every thursday and no other times. However that doesnt apply here. Also I cleaned alittle which I normally did at home. I sat down and wondered why it felt so different if I normally do it. For one I dont have anyone telling me to do it. I always hated when my mom would tell me to do the dishes because I always felt like I HAD to which made me hate it. But now, I LOVE doing the dishes, it takes some stress away and makes me feel nice inside. On top of that im not only doing my dishes im doing mine and the people I live with. Which makes me feel EVEN better because they can come home after a long day and relax. Thats the only reason I have of why it feels so different. Im still trying to think about that. So from yesterday being an adult is pretty awesome when it comes to doing chores. I also think im a little werid for liking chores. 

I havent had to face super hard adult things yet, Thank God for that. I do feel like I have alot on my back. Alot of Choices in my life and im very nervous to  make them. I know that many people make stupid choices and I also know that I will do the same but I have to learn not to be so freaked out about it. I have alot to learn and alot to do before I can say im an "Adult". Im turning 18 in November.. Hopefully I will learn before that.

Live Long, Laugh Hard, Love Strong ♥

Choices..

Hello.

I might as well start this blog off by tell everyone who I am :P My name is Kristen. I am 17 (turning 18 in November). Life is being very hard right now so thats when I wanted to start blogging. I needed to find SOME way to let off a little steam and I also got inspired by God and by Alyssa who is the greatest Woman of life. I Prayed and prayed asking God for some way to let out my emotions instead of phyiscal harm. (Thats a blog for another day) So after reading Alyssas blog and many other blogs and after feeling like God told me to blog I decided to BLOG! This blog took me 30 mins to make... I had the hardest time picking a domain. I choose "Becominganadultishard" because I have been faced with being an adult SUPER FAST. and recently have had to make alot of choices that i thought only adults had to make. That choice is to move out of my house because of family reasons and move into a neighbours house is one. I was hoping that this blog would help me spit out my feelings and not explode with emotions. In everyones life we have to face hardtimes, goodtimes, and even awesome times. Right now I am in the hard times, but thats ok I will survive. Currently I am living with the two most wonderful people in my life!, Also I apartment hunting which is really hard. I AM SUPER nervous about it.

1.) For one I am nervous because of change. I also thought I was a good person when it comes to change, I take it accept it and move on. Well thats before I started thinking about paying rent...

2.) The second reason is roommates. I have a potential roommate already but things are in stone as of right now. I also thought it would be better to move in with someone new because you know if im starting a new life might as well make new friends. NOW I think its a scary idea because what if I dont like the person, or what if they steal stuff there are many more endless things that can go wrong with finding someone you have never met. However that person can end up being you best friend.

3.) MONEY MONEY MONEY. I have always had a fear of running out of money and this is what scares me the most. Part of me wants to be able to pay for everything my self. The other part doesnt think I can and doesnt want to try incase of potential bankruptcy. I do have a job right now but I dont make enough to be alone.

All in All this blog is to help me cope with the ideas of living on my own, and to get advice from everyone reading this. I am a noob blogger but I hope to get better as I go along. Thanks for reading this. I will try and keep everyone posted on my Adult Adventures and will blog as much as possible. Hopefully we can take this journey together.

Live Long. Laugh Hard. Love Strong. ♥